Looking Back

I've been noticing a lot of year in reviews going on.
Its been fun going back and looking through pictures from this past year.
Here's a little glimpse of January 2011.

I'll add the other months in the next few days. Bonus I learned how to use clipping masks in CS5. Makes doing these little collages a whole lot faster! (darn just saw double shelf...oh well!)


Yeah, that's right, I'm famous!!!

Sometime last week I attempted to make this:

What I got was this:

And ended up on here:

Best thing ever!


365 Update

November 25

November 26

November 27

November 28

November 29
November 30
December 1
December 2
December 3

My goal since my first update on my 365 was to work more at taking my camera out during the day instead of getting my photo in right before going to bed. I was much better at that this time around. I'd like to try and get outside a bit more or catch better lighting during the day.
Let me know if you have a 365 or any sort of photo series as I'd love to follow along!


101 in 1001

I added my "101 in 1001" list to the blog.  Check it out here!
In case you haven't heard of one before check out the info at Day Zero Project. My list isn't there now but it was when I originally started in over a year ago.
Let me know if you have any sort of list project going as I'd love to check it out!


You're not like those women in the magazine are you?

"You're not like those women in the magazines with those things attached to their both their boobs are you? That's so stupid. They look like cows."

Those are the words I heard when Ella was 6 days old and the inevitable question of "how's breastfeeding going?" came up at a family get together. It wasn't and I was pumping every two hours during the day and every 3 at night.

"Yes, I am one of those women."

Feeding Ella was hell in the hospital. She didn't get to try to breastfeed until 5 hours after she was born. Then the nurses started freaking out because she was slightly shaky and her blood sugar was low. They pricked her tiny foot every two hours all night long. I tried over and over to feed her but she just wouldn't really eat. Formula was offered and although it was not said outright it was implied that I better feed her it to get her blood sugar up. So we used a syringe to feed her drops of formula as I was determined to breastfeed.

The next day our pediatrician came and saw her and said he wasn't concerned about her blood sugar levels at all and that all the pricking and testing of her had been unnecessary. Fantastic!

During the next 24 hours in the hospital we had widely varying advice about what to do.
"She'll get the hang of it."- She didn't.
"You should pump."- I did.
"There is no way you should be pumping right now!!! You'll wreck your milk supply!!!"- I still pumped.

I thought she was eating okay. I knew she wasn't eating as well as she could but I figured it would take us both a while to get the hang of it.

Most of the time when I tried to feed her she would suck for about a minute and then fall asleep. I think we got to 5 minutes once and I was overjoyed!

Then Friday night while at my mom's she actually ate for 15 minutes and I came to the horrible realization that Ella was not eating properly and I felt like I was basically starving my child.

I broke down at two in the morning and my husband called Health Link while I sat beside him and sobbed.

They sent a lactation consultant out the next morning and we worked hard at getting Ella to eat but she just hated it. We had me holding her, the nurse supporting her and Roy using a syringe to inject milk into the side of Ella's mouth while she sucked. We were trying to get her to understand that was where the milk would come from if she worked hard enough. 5 minutes of this was exhausting but we did it for about an hour.

The nurse suggested I get a pump so I could supplement Ella while we worked at the breastfeeding.

On Sunday after hearing the comment about pumping and being a cow we took Ella upstairs and fed her a bottle of breastmilk for the first time. I was so relieved and overjoyed when she took it. My baby was eating!!!

We tried for a few more days to get Ella to actually breastfeed but it was just so stressful. I wondered if it was possible to feed her just by pumping and started Googling. I found out some women did this thing called "Exclusive Pumping". I spent 5 hours in the ER waiting room overnight (that's a whole other story!) reading message boards about it.

I had found my solution. So I put aside my hopes that she'd breastfeed and started pumping exclusively.

I was less stressed, Ella was eating enough and overall everyone was happier.

Now, I pump for 20- 30 minutes every 2-4 hours during the day and once during the early morning if Ella happens to get up to eat.

I kept trying to get her to breastfeed but she really hates it. She literally screams whenever my boob gets near her which is great if I ever need a reason to leave some place early- just need to flash my child!

Just so you know I wrote the majority of this post while pumping because I pump hands free like those women in the magazine and I'm damn proud of it!


Project 365

Since finally getting my camera off Auto and figuring out how to shoot in full manual I've been determined to be constantly improving in my photography skills.
I've attempted a Project 365 (taking a picture a day for 365 days) before with the intention of documenting life but this time I am doing it to improve my skills and documenting life is just an added bonus. I gave up after about 5 days last time and so far I am at 14 days!
So here's the first two weeks of my Project 365!
November 11
50mm 1.8f 1/60s ISO 800

November 12
50mm 1.8f 1/500s ISO 100

November 13
50mm 1.8f 1/500s ISO 400

November 14
50mm 1.8f 1/50s ISO 200

November 15
50mm 1.8f 1/160s ISO 200

November 16
50mm 1.8f 1/250s ISO 200
November 17
50mm 1.8f 1/100s ISO 400
November 18
50mm 1.8f 1/25s ISO 800

November 19
50mm 1.8f 1/100s ISO 1600
November 20 (iPhone)
November 21
50mm 1.8f 1/250s ISO 800
November 22 (iPhone)

November 23
50mm 1.8f 1/4000s ISO 100

November 24
55mm 5.6f 1/25s ISO 1600


[Pretty close to wordless] Wednesday

This is why I could never be a fashion blogger.... Feel like an idiot balancing the camera on the BBQ and taking multiple shots as fast as possible before a neighbour comes outside... AWKWARD... that and I have no fashion!


Christmas Card

Finished up our Christmas card this morning. Can't wait to order them!
[You can make your own through Heritage Makers]


Christmas Questions

Playing along with Jess @ IROCKSOWHAT 
and Sarah @ NurseLovesFarmer
1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? White hot chocolate

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? There are people who don't wrap presents?!?! Wrapped.

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? White. But we haven't put up lights. Not sure we will this year either. Yes we're those people!

4. Do you hang mistletoe? Nope.

5. When do you put your decorations up? Sometime in December. I'm not usually a Christmas fanatic but this year I'm a little more excited for it. I bought some decorations last week.

6. What is your favorite holiday dish? Can't think of a particular one but here's a secret- I don't really like turkey. 

7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child? Loud crazy Christmas dinners at my Aunts. Getting the brown paper bag filled with candy at the Christmas Eve service.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? Fairly certain I never really believed in him. 

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? Always just one. Usually was pjs, a calendar, or magazine.

10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree? While growing up my mom went on this kick of white lights and colour coordinated decorations. I hated it and always wanted coloured lights and all the ornaments. Now I like white lights but just a mishmash of ornaments- no colour coordination here!

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it? I'm not snow's biggest fan but after ten years of living in a place with 5-6 months of it and having seen it snow in August we've come to a mutual understanding...
12. Can you ice skate? Yes.

13. Do you remember your favorite gift? Not really.  I used to get a season of Gilmore Girls every year so that was good.

14. What’s the most important thing about the Holidays for you? Family.

15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert? What isn't my favourite holiday dessert???

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Opening a gift on Christmas Eve.

17. What tops your tree? A star. Fun fact: the only tree that fits in our house house is about a foot tall.

18. Which do you prefer giving or receiving? I think Christmas would be okay if there were no presents. Too many expectations. We refuse to go into debt over Christmas...

19. Candy Canes: Blue candy canes are my favourite!

20. Favorite Christmas show? A Christmas Story. Best ever.

21. Saddest Christmas Song? Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer???? Blue Christmas???

22. What is your favorite Christmas song? Away in a Manager. And that Alvin and the Chipmunks song. 
First Christmas in our House (see the tiny tree!)
Now there is a shelf there so I have no clue where to put the tree!

First Christmas together, somehow these are the only picture I have... 
Note to self: take pictures this year!


Ella's First Snow

We woke up to the white stuff this morning! This is probably the only time I've been excited about the first snow because its Ella's first snow EVER!


Show Off Your Shot

10 Day Old Fresh Human!
My new little niece! 

Linking up to Show Off Your Shot at "and then, she {snapped}"

and then, she {snapped}

Paper Mama Photo Challenge- Face

Paper Mama Photo Challenge this week is "Face".
I love this little face to the moon and back!

The Paper Mama


The Paper Mama Photo Challenge Week 76

This is my first time entering the challenge! I'm excited to go check out all the other "Colourful" Photos.
I love the green in her shirt and in the trees in the background. The sunlight just reminds me of summer and how light and colourful it is! Plus cute newborn sleeping face.



Lately this little miss has become a near pro at tummy time. And eating her hands. And yes, that hairdo is 100% natural!