You know you need to clean your room when...

I'm sitting here printing off my three assignments totally over 30 pages. I'm praying my ink and paper hold out!
The printer is on the floor hooked up to my laptop. And I am sitting on a pile of dirty laundry- and there is more dirty laundry surrounding me. I am a pig sometimes! Things just get busy are there are assignments to do and then its suddenly Friday and my room is hugely messy again and as I look at all the laundry on the floor I wonder if I have any clean laundry. That is a very good question... All I need is a clean shirt!

I got an email from a friend who is over in Hong Kong. That definately made my day! Its so good to hear little bit about what is happening and to know people are safe and having a blast. Life is so different without them all.

my printer just made a breaking sound. its okay.

i once dropped it and my laptop at the same time. well I didn't drop them. They fell off the shelf thing they were on. That is why it is now on the floor. Its safer that way.

Okay my bum is getting numb sitting on my hardwood floor.

I orignally said my bum is getting number... but that doesn't made sense. so i changed it after posting it. haha


What is Happening to Society? (A deep post...)

When did a TV show become more important than relationship?
Why have we let media become front and center in our life?
Where do our values really lie?

I ask these questions because of something that happened tonight. A friend I haven't seen in a while was talking to me on MSN and it was nice. Then she realized she was missing the OC and left. Now in case you read this I'm not mad at you or anything. It just made me think.
I know I've done that before. I've left a conversation with a friend to go watch a TV show.
But as I think of my friends in Hong Kong or Tony and Lena in Thailand, I would stay on MSN all night to have the chance to talk to any of them for even 5 minutes. There is no way I'd leave one of those conversations to go watch a TV show.

So where do our values lie?
Is a TV show really more important than a conversation with a friend?
Will your life significantly be altered if you miss the latest episode of America's Top Model or Grey's Anatomy or ER (Those last two are definately me....)
Not really.
Will it significantly be altered because you lose out on chances to build relationship?

If we all snub each other for the more important things in life that is all we will have left.

We will be sitting alone with our TVs watching reruns of crappy tv shows, our only friends.

Okay so maybe that last part is a bit extreme. I guess I've just come to realize that value of relationships lately. And the complete insignificance TV has to our life. Be a college student for a few months. You'll quickly learn that TV isn't all that important and you can go for days without watching and surprisingly the world does keep turning.
I think about the TV thing often as I prepare to move out. Do I not have one all together? But I would love to have people come over and watch movies. Or would I really? Wouldn't it be better to build relationships through talking and goofing around rather than staring mindlessly at a screen. Probably. So be warned all you who plan to visit me next year- our apartment will be a place of TVless bliss!!!

And I will now stop procrasting homework. Almost done!


Yes or No?? (AKA timewaster #23988)

You can ONLY say YES or NO.
You are NOT allowed to explain ANYTHING.

1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? no
4. Drove a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? no
8. Stole money from a friend? no
9. Gotten in the car with people you didnt know? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
12. Had feelings for someone of the same sex? no
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? no
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept (not had sex) in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
20. Seen someone dying? no
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3? yes
24. Miss someone right now? yes!!!!
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? yes
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? no
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? no
37. Been in a car accident that you didnt cause? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? no
39. Been the person doing the crime? no
40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? no
43. Felt so sick you thought you might die? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes.
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
50. Kissed in the rain? no
51. Sang in the shower? yes
52. Had sex in a park? no
53. Had a dream where you were married? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? yes
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? no
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laughed so hard you cried? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? no
68. Cheated on a test? no
69: Forgotten someones name? yes
70. Slept naked? no
71. Gone skinny dipping? no
73. Blacked out from drinking? no
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? no
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? no
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no
80. Been cheated on? no
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Felt like running away? yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? no
87. Had detention and not attend it? no
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried about someone? yes
91. Had sex with more than one person in a 24 hour period? no
92. Dated someone you didn't even like? no
93. Had/Have a dog? yes
95. Own an instrument? yes
96. Been in band? yes
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
98. Broken a CD? no
99. Shot a gun? no
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? yes

Time Flies...

So I'm not going to write a whole lot. I don't have much to say. Theres been stuff. And other stuff. And thats all.
Went to the oilers game last night. And sadly we lost.
Going to a youth movie night tonight.
Have to finish my gospels major assignment before I go. It'll take like 5 minutes. I just am waaay to lazy to do it.
Due date got moved to Friday so I can do my parable stuff tomorrow, and ahem on Friday. Teehee.



Time Waster #13846

If you've seen over 70 of these movies.... you have way too much time to waste!

(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
() The Mexican
() Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
() Never-ending Story
() Blazing Saddles
() Garden State
(x) The Princess Bride
() Young Frankenstien
() AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
() Saw
() White noise
() White Oleander
(x) Anger Management

total here? :5

(x) 50 First Dates
() Jason
() Scream
() Scream 2
() Scream 3
() Scary Movie
() Scary Movie 2
() Scary Movie 3
() American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
() Resident Evil I
() Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book

total here : 7

(x) The Village
() Donnie Darko
(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Finding Nemo
() Finding Neverland
() 13 Ghosts
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre
() White Chicks
() Butterfly Effect
(x) Thirteen going on 30
() I,Robot
(x) Dodgeball
() Universal Soldier
() Universal Soldier 2
() A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Bad Boys
() Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
() Seven
(x) Oceans Eleven
() Oceans Twelve
(x) Identity

total here: 9

() Lone Star
() Predator I
() Predator II
(x) Independence day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
() ET
() Children of the Corn
() My boss' daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
() Frailty
() Best bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
() Calendar Girls
() Sideways
() Mars Attacks

total here: 4

() Event Horizon
(x) Ever after
(x) Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
(x) X-men 1
(x) X-men 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
() The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Swimfan
() Miracle
() Old School
() Ray
(x) The Notebook
() K-Pax

total here : 9

(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
() Boogeyman
() Hitch
() The Fifth Element
(x) Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
() Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
() Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x) Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi
() Troop Beverly Hills
() Swimming with Sharks
(x) Air Force One
(x) For Richer or Poorer
() Trainspotting
() People under the stairs
() Blue Velvet
(x) Sound of music
(x) Parent Trap
() The Burbs
() The Terminator
() Empire Records
() SLC Punk
() Meet Joe Black
() Wild girls
() Clockwork Orange
() the Order
(x) Spiderman
(x) Spiderman 2
() Amelie

total here: 13

() Mean Girls
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) The Incredibles
() Collateral
(x) The Fast & The Furious
() 2 Fast 2 Furious
() Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
() Closer

total here: 4

(x) Titanic
(x) Saved
() Bowling For Columbine
() Farenheit 9/11
(x) The Sixth Sense
() Artificial intelligence
(x) Love actually
() Shutter
(x) Ella Enchanted
(x) Princess diaries 1
() Princess diaries 2
() Constantine
() Million Dollar Baby
() Envy
() Eurotrip
() Malibu's Most wanted
() Big Daddy
() Black Sheep
(x) The Breakfast Club
() West side story

total here : 7

(x) A Christmas Story
() Spanglish
() Pulp Fiction
() Sleepover
() Evil Dead
() Killer Klowns From Outer Space
() Vanilla Sky
() Nightmare Before Christmas
() Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
() Interview With The Vampire
() The Crow
() The Crow 2
() The Crow 3
() Purple Rain
() Reservoir Dogs
() Wayne's World

total here: 1

() Wayne's World 2
() 21 Grams
() Blow
(x) Edward Scissorhands
() Clerks
(x) Beauty and the Beast
() Guess who
() monster in-law
() Elf
(x) Stuart little
(x) Stuart little 2
(x) Mall Rats
() Chasing Amy
() Dogma
() Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back

total here: 5

() Beetlejuice
() The Last Samurai
() The Amityville Horror
() The Aviator
(x) Romeo and Juliet
() Barbershop
() Beauty Shop
(x) legally blonde
(x) legally blonde 2
() the forgotten
() confessions of a teenage drama queen
() the grudge

total: 3

Total on everything: 67ish... I don't trust the math i do in my head :D

From horrible to Hoorah!

Somehow this week managed to go from being extremely crappy to amazing!
I started this week with roughly 70 hours of practicum to do.
I am now down to about 45!
I've down 23 hours of practicum from Monday to Friday this week and remember some hours I forgot to add into my calculations for February.
So it seems managable!
And I also managed to finish two major assignments a week early! So no I only have 3 to do for Thursday. I'm hoping to finish a good chunk of my Systematic Theology questions tonight and finish them by tomorrow. Do one of my gospels assignments on Monday and then the other one on Wednesday. Then I will be down to only two assignments for the rest of the school year. Hoorah!

So I'm going to apply for a job at another library that goes from this April til next April- perfect timing. Its 17.5 hours a week but thats manageable. I want to take at least one course by distance ed this summer and if I get the other library job I would only have to work the one job or minimal hours at a second one. And that would enable me to dedicate a lot of time to a distance ed course and some summer practicum stuff. So pray that if its meant to be I'll get the job because there are some obstables (time off and availability) that I fear might make it hard to get the job. But we'll see.

Okay I suppose I should do some homework... bleh.

The end is in sight!



So I changed my template. The other was just too... stupid girly. Besides this one is pink.

I finished my literature review today and handed it in! Woohoo! I can't tell you how happy that makes me.
And I'm not going to count the assignments I have left. That will just depress me.

Today was an emotionally trying day. Although one of my better ones this week.
And it wasn't emotionally trying because of selfish reasons or anything.
The speaker in chapel was just.... wow. He was from Voice of the Martyrs. And his stories and the videos. I don't feel like going into it too much. There was a lot of conviction, a lot of sadness, and some tears. I'll maybe write more when I've processed it a tad more.
And another emotionally trying moment. Without going into too much detail to protect identities and feelings and all that.... I just found out some stuff about some of the kids I volunteer with. And wow. When I found out I make more at my part time job then a dad that supports a family of 6 (per hour wage).... how is that supposed to make you feel?
And just hearing all the friends or family members that have been in hospital recently- one dealing with the effects of alcoholism.... Its just tough to hear.
today was an awesome day in sewing club though. We didn't sew. We just hung out and talked. I got to know the girls a whole lot more and I just felt an increased attachment and closeness. And the coolest thing happened when I was leaving. We were walking out of the Hands House and this lady waved and smiled the hugest smile. (People in the neighbourhood know the House) I didn't know her but she just gave me the hugest smile and waved anyways. And then when I drove by her she smiled again and waved. And I just laughed with glee. Yes I actually laughed with glee. I have no other way to describe it. I'm starting to feel connected to the neighbourhood- even if its very slighty. I hope with continued working with Judi and Tool Time this summer that feeling with grow stronger and deeper.


ps. So somehow i got stuck behind the same slow lady on the Yellowhead. I kid you not, the very same lady! What are the chances???? Grrr! (Maybe God is saying something about patience to me... haha. I already know I have to work on that!)



So I started today stressed out to the max. I blame it all on the stupid lady in front of me going 60 on the Yellowhead from St Albert Trail to 107th. I couldn't pass her because of the traffic in the next lane. I know we were in the "slow" lane but go the freakin speed limit! And consider most people drive 70-90 on the Yellowhead she was doing 10-30 below the speed limit. An accident waiting to happen.

Wow I just needed to rant about that.

Rant number two.

Practicum Hours.
How in the world am I going to do them all? Even just the amount I need to graduate. There is no way I'm not graduating with my friends. That would be the crappiest of all crappy things in the world.
So I was just super stressed about that and ready to quit school. I had no desire to worship in chapel. [bad me I know i couldn't help it though] plus i kinda felt i was at a staged concert not worship. but thats besides the point.
I wrote like 3 pages in my journal while prof. guthrie spoke. I listened too but I really just needed to get a crapload of stuff off my chest. And that is what I did. I find my journal is targeted to a single topic lately. One that requires "Do Not Read" post-its. (I hand my journal in for one of my courses and if I don't want something read then I stick a "Do not read" post it on the page and that is respected...i hope!) The 3rd time all year and this time they are like every second page!!! But that just helped clear my mind quite a bit.
And tonight I got my rough and first draft of my Literature Review done! Yippee. Its only 7 and I accomplished that. That make my outlook brighter! And I'm feeling significantly better about practicum hours too. I'm going to help with the youth silent auction this friday! Which will be a ton of hours!
So this is how my week for practicum hours looks.
Monday- 2 hours meeting with Judi
2.5 hours carnival budget
Tuesday- none
Wednesday- hopefully 1.5 hours cleaning room
potentially 2 hours CFM bulletin board
Thursday- 2 hours sewing club
Friday- 1 hour filing
7-8 hours silent auction
Saturday- fundraising prep 1 hour
Sunday- .5 hour kids worship
So that puts my grand total for the week at..... 18-19 hours! Holy shiza! Thats a lot of hours. Let me see that puts me at... hopefully 55 hours left! Not bad for starting at about 75 at the beginning of this week!
Life is looking brighter!

*giant sigh of relief*


Time Machine...

Does someone have a time machine I could borrow?

I realized today I have 70 hours of practicum to do in 5 weeks.
Holy crap!
well I need 30 more to graduate- but it'll definately screw with my GPA. AHHHH! I can finish the hours over the summer though and that'll fix my mark. This is seriously uncool. I have to work like crazy at both school and practicum.

And for this reason this entry will be short.

As in ending now.



I like these weird blog things..

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.


1. How does the world see me?:
Harmony by Gordon Lightfoot

2. Will I have a happy life?:
Cadillac Ranch by Nitty Gritty Dirt Band

3. What do my friends really think of me?:
Mend by Jann Arden

4. Do people secretly love me?:
Life As We Know It by Carolyn Dawn Johnson

5. How can I make myself happy?:
Time of your Life (Til your dead) by Matt Mays and El Torpedo

6. What should I do with my life?:
Ride by Amanda Marshall

7. Will I ever have children?:
Hold On, Hold On by Neko Case

8. What is some good advice for me?:
Hold On by Sarah McLachlan (this is about her boyfriend dying, v. sad)

9. How will I be remembered?:
Janeen by Jann Arden (ouch I hope not!!!)

10. What is my signature dancing song?:
Praise You With the Dance by Casting Crown (ironic)

11. What do I think my current theme song is?:
I'll Let You Go by Carolyn Dawn Johnson (sad song!)

12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
Cherry Popsicle by Jann Arden

13. What song will play at my funeral?:
Another Human Being by Jann Arden (actually about good people that have died!)

14. What type of men/women do you like?:
Jesus Was A Carpenter by Johnny Cash

15. What is my day going to be like?:
Your Love is Extravegant by Casting Crowns

As you can see my playlist is limited to very few artists. Haha.

Speaking of Interesting...

Okay work itself was not interesting. Its a library so I mean really.
However Pam tried to get me to go to Anahiem with her. I'm contimplating since she would have enough airmiles for air fare for both of us. Yet it still seems like a lot of money. I'm thinking about it... I never do anything crazy like that.

My parents bought a condo during the 4.5 hours I was at work. Yeah. Crazy. Insanity. Not really as they have been talking about it for like 3 years. Now this means Jen and I are definately getting an apartment. Since I have no room in the new house. Haha. I was planning on moving out anyways. This just makes it for sure for sure. Kraft Dinner night here I come!

They got a new 42" plasma tv with the house as well. Personally I think thats the only reason they bought it.

I don't want to do homework. I did work out though. 45 minutes on the elliptical. An episode of Alias. Woohoo.

Reality is setting in though. Assignments are due in 11 days. Yikesabee! (Wow its been a while since I've said that)

Trip to Anahiem or a new digital camera and a months rent.... decisions, decisions.


Sunday Times...

I didn't go to church this morning. Well it doesn't start for another hour so I guess the correct term would be "i'm not going to church this morning." The roads are still horrible crazy and I don't feel like driving to church for probably 45 minutes being their for half an hour to then drive the 45 minutes back to work. Its just not logical.

So I have a few hours to kill before work.

Here's what I hope to accomplish in that time:

Work out

Okay thats all I hope to accomplish. I have very low goals today.

Through surfing blogs I've discovered way too many people write about politics. Okay maybe I shouldn't say way too many. It just seems an exorbenent amount. I also saw some weird pictures of Emma Watson (aka Hermoine) drinking beer. She is 15. And that was random.

Jileane- yes. feel priveleged. You are a priveleged sort of person. And yes crappit will go down in history and will be remembered for all time, or at least until next week.

Tony- I think I puked in my mouth a little.... sweat in the vatofood. *shudder* I don't want to think about it. The sweating is just going to get worse in Thailand. From the few people I know that are there doing their internships, they say there are lots of internet cafes. I'm excited for you guys to go to Thailand and Pakistan. Both sound like amazing opportunities. I'll be praying tons for you guys! ps. I miss the man underneath the layer of sweat more than the sweat...)

Lena- I've heard about the KFC biscuts. That is weird. I could go for a biscut right now. When you get back we will have to have a KFC, certain unnamed television show *ahem*, and caramel apple day. Maybe a little bit of ice cream thrown in there. If we are going to be that unhealthy we might as well go all the way! Remember everything that happens in Thailand and Pakistan so you can tell me about. And I mean everything. Every detail. That is your mission should you choose to accept it. And accept it you must! ;)

Okay I guess I could go start on my list of things to do before work.

If something interesting happens at work I'll write later.



Fun Thing...

Name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head..
Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.

1. Jeff
2. Jileane
3. Amberlie
4. Rachelle
5. Keryn
6. Erin
7. Daniel
8. Corie
9. Ian
11. Joey
12. Brit
13. Dhiraj
14. Jessica
15. Lynne
16. Lena
17. Tony
18. Michelle
19. Alex
20. Renee
21. Cindie

Q: how did you meet 14?
Jr High!

Q: what would you have to do to see 10?
Stay at her house :D

Q: what would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
HAhahah... no comment. Both are otherwise involved...

Q: would 21 and 12 make a good couple?
Um. Not at all.

Q: describe 6:
Ah. I love Erin. we go all the way back to cross grade homeroom. She's overseas and I miss her horribly. She is the sweetest thing ever. I miss you!

Q: do you think 19 is attractive?
Um... awkward!

Q: tell me something humiliating about 17:
Oh where to start... He is sweaty... haha. I miss tony's sweat. I bet its even grosser in Hawaii.

Q: do you know any of 4's family members?
Yes. I've met her dad and her aunt. And her grandma stepped on my hand.

Q: what would you do if 18 just confessed they liked you?
Again, awkward. I'll tell her I liked her too :D she's a great friend.

Q: when's the last time you talked to 13?
Since I broke his "I swear I'll never talk to Kristi again..." thing, a couple days ago.

Q: what is 2's favorite band?
Hawksley workman

Q: would you ever date 5?
I don't swing that way.

Q: is 11 single?
He's lik 15 so I think so. But i never know.

Q: would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 16?
Me and lena are quite serious already. :P

Q: where does 15 live?
There is a Shell station right by it, and near a traffic circle.

Q: are number 7 & 8 best friends?
Not that I know of...

Q: do you like 1?
jeff is my great friend from cmc...

Q: thoughts on 3?
Oh the history. Forks and boys, beads and noses. Great times.

I'm back...

So I'm back.
Its been a while.
But I feel like its time to blog again.

Um don't read too much into my whole layout. Unless you are certain people who know certain things. Then read as much into it as you like. But please don't ask me about it. I'm confused as a dizzy catepillar. Or something. And that is all I will speak on the subject for now.

I have created a new word. Crappit. It refers to the roads conditions here. Its snowed like 30 cm since last night. Its horrible. I suppose crappit could describe many things though. What I'm not sure- insert your own things crappit describes here-.

School is drawing to a close! Which is sad and relieving all at the same time. I've decided to stay at Vanguard for 3 more years.
All of my classmates but one are in Thailand right now. I miss them something fierce. 39 days til they come home.

I went to youth last night for the first time in a long time. It was some good times.

As a result of Tim Hortons after midnight and alarming number of people know something about me that I almost wish they didn't. But Daniel has his fingers crossed for me so I think that makes me feel better.

Work was horribly slow today. Normally the library is a gong show of busy-ness. Today was brutal. Nothing to do. But I did get paid great to do very little.

So here I am blogging again. I sort of missed it. And I want this one to last. I plan to have a much more exciting life so hopefully it will.